Posts Tagged ‘autism sibling’

I see my child running left to right.  With an adult like animal chasing after her–one that once was human–strung by an invisible rope–sweating  Big, fat drops of sweat  born in a long day of keeping up– To my daughter’s erratic steps.    The chime and play of the entire school on the blacktop is a world entirely unbeknownst  to me—a mirage– I see my child in the wood chips–curiously untamed, naked screaming  like a distraught fawn bare shaky on her legs spitting angst at everyone– And the principal hovering–a…

A week ago, my younger son started playing soccer. My daughter took him to his first practice because I was sick.  As I perused the pictures she sent me, it was obvious how much he enjoyed playing. My daughter barely saw him the entire hour he played because he was running around so much. He was having a blast with his new buddy. This soccer program is a program for children with special needs. My younger son has ADHD.  His ADHD causes him to have a difficult time paying attention…

“When are you going to get over this?” My husband calmly asked, as I laid in our bed yet again crying.  I can’t remember what event involving our son preceded it; Another evaluation, an elopement, an awkward moment at a family gathering or school, maybe it was another long meltdown. Whichever it was, I was now lying in bed quietly crying and venting to him about all of it. Pure heartbreak and fear.    After his question, I knew he immediately regretted asking it, not only because it sounded so harsh,…

Yesterday, I cried. That’s right, this strong, brave mother who everyone thinks has the answers, cried big ugly crocodile tears. Everything I thought I was doing right was questioned. I went home after yet another meeting for Kyle and went straight to my room, sat on the edge of my bed, kicked off my boots, fell backward, and had myself a good cry. I cried until my eyeliner was streaking across my face. I cried until my eyes were puffy and my head hurt so bad I could barely see…

Dear Parents, It’s that time again- the beginning of a new school year. After the last couple years, I think we’re all ready to get back to some semblance of normal. Most of us prepare children in the usual ways. Open house, new backpacks, clean lunch boxes, lots of forms signed and last minute sneakers. I need you to do something else, too. Will you talk to your children about who may be in their classroom? Tell them about the little people who are squares navigating a very round world.…