Tuesday was a really tough day and it took me by surprise how hard it hit me. Just when I think things are getting better WAM. Like a freight train. I am so mad and so sad all the time that it just wears me down to nothing. And I’m tired of being mad and sad and tired of being tired. But most of all I’m tired of expecting things to be different. Maybe I need a big dose of acceptance? Maybe that’s the missing piece. I spent most of…
Read MorePlease God just tell us what to do. Simple as that. Cooper had an epic fail at speech today. As I type this I am actually shaking my head because it gets worse every single appointment. How? Why? Someone reading this might actually think I am joking. Or exaggerating. Trust me…I am not. I took Cooper to his speech appointment this morning alone and he did well for the first 20 minutes. Yes, he hopped from activity to activity but we were able to engage him. His therapist loves him and…
Read MoreThere are so many different pieces of Cooper’s delays that I often just lump them together because I get so overwhelmed when I think about each part individually. But now that Sawyer is here and developing on a typical path I can’t believe how many things I should have noticed. Cooper met all of his beginning milestones right on time and because he met all of these milestones on time I really didn’t pay attention to the rest. Holding his head up, rolling over, sitting up, crawling, standing, walking and then…
Read MoreI attempted to try the whole potty training this again yesterday. Cooper isn’t quite ready yet but I want to make sure he comfortable with the potty, underwear and all that goes along with it. So yesterday he was pretty stoked to wear his Thomas the Train underwear. Actually, he got to wear 5 different pairs because he peed through them all. Lucky boy! And lucky mama! I wanted to share with you some of the sentences this mama said out loud yesterday. Sentences Only A Mother of a Boy Could…
Read MoreYesterday was really tough. And for more than one reason. I actually thought about sugar-coating it because I feel like lately I have been posting such bad/sad stuff. But if we can’t be honest in our blog what hope do we have! A guy that I went to college with committed suicide last week and the funeral was yesterday. Tuesday night the whole gang from college got together. It was one of those moments where you haven’t seen each other for 10 years and all of a sudden you are best…
Read MoreHubs was feeding Sawyer a bottle the other day and I made a comment about how cute they looked. Hubs said, “well, this is most likely my last baby so I want to soak it up.” STAB TO THE HEART. In another life I would have had 4 or 5 babies. I love babies. All I ever wanted to be was a mom. I love being pregnant and the excitement of waiting to meet the new love of my life. I love the baby grunts and the smell and nursing and…
Read MoreI tell myself on a daily basis that Cooper might not talk. I have too…for me. (This is one of my freak out posts.) I am pretty sure it is a defense mechanism. I have even started saying it to my parents. It’s like I almost need to shock them or something. But not to be mean or hurtful. I need them to get it. I need them to understand that this is really, really serious. On a scale of 1 to Oh My God this is Oh My God plus one.…
Read MoreWe had another excellent weekend. I could start getting used to this! I’ve heard from lots of other moms that their kids really started to grow up at age 3 and I can say that I am seeing lots of changes in Cooper. We had our big family Christmas on Saturday at a water park and let’s say we learned that Cooper is half-fish. He spent so much time in the water I didn’t know if the pruning would ever go away. I get very, very nervous for events like this…
Read MoreDue to the holiday and the insane deep freeze that Minnesota has been in for over a week, Cooper had his first speech appointment yesterday in 3 weeks. I have been like a new woman without speech. First, no running around. One thing that no one tells you when your child has needs is that you will spend most of your time driving your child to and from appointments. I was really getting resentful of the running around so 3 weeks off was an amazing break. Secondly, and most important, we had no…
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