A few weeks ago I found myself at an event with lots of adults and kids. But not just any kids. Seven year old kids. Specifically, seven year old boys. Boys that are the exact same age as my son. My son’s peers. I should have felt right at home. I am a mom. I know boys. My son is seven. Except, I felt like these boys and their moms were speaking another language. I don’t know anything about seven year old boys. Not really. My son may be seven.…
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When my son was diagnosed with autism at age three I was flooded with emotions and questions. I wanted to know what our future looked like. I wanted to know if my son would ever be potty trained, speak, live on his own. The list goes on and on. I felt like our future had been changed in an instant. For years I would ask therapists and teachers question after question. I’d ask if they thought he would ever talk. Some would say yes. Some would so no. Some would…
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My Super Cooper had some rough ear pain last night. It was the first time in his life he has ever cried out screaming and crying. My kid is tough. Jamie and I practically levitated out of our chairs at the intensity of his screams. When your kid is nonverbal you start to understand cries and noises. This was real. For a brief second I was scared to look in his room. By the sound of his screams I couldn’t really imagine what had happened. He was laying in bed…
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When my son was diagnosed with autism at age three, I remember hearing about services available. I heard about Medicaid. I heard about Social Security. I remember inquiring and realizing that we over the income limit. Which at the time was fine because I never believed we would actually need services. Or help. Both my husband and I worked. We had good health insurance through my husband’s employer, Wells Fargo Bank. We assumed that everything would be covered. We assumed wrong. Good health insurance often only covers a small portion…
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I remember when I was pregnant with my son I would imagine and dream about his future. I’d think about the cute things he was going to say and do. I’d look at other children and imagine myself with my son. I’d imagine him playing sports, making friends and playing games with me. I envisioned the conversations we’d have. I would get lost in a daydream of Jamie teaching him to catch his first fish and me running behind after his bike. I pictured myself having the kid that says…
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I felt a sense of urgency the second I realized that something was different with my son. An urgency to help him. An urgency to do everything at once. An urgency to ramp up, take autism head on, knowing in my heart that the more we did, the better the outcome would be. I remember the day our Pediatrician did a referral for the Help Me Grow service to come to our home to evaluate Cooper. Their job was to see if he had delays. I called them immediately. I…
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This post is about the ‘start’ of our autism journey with our now 17 year old son Cody, who is on the severe end of the autism spectrum. This is when I first realized that my life was not going to be as I had anticipated or even hoped it was going to be and how I learned to be okay with it. And more importantly, how I turned those lost hopes and dreams into what is now my only desire. A lifetime of happiness for my son with no…
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“Our Nurse Practitioner said she would not speak with you. She doesn’t even know you. She sees no reason to speak with you outside of the appointment.” “You can leave your son in the waiting room for five minutes and talk to the nurse before.” “Our Nurse Practitioner has no time to speak with you between now and the end of February. She also has no time to read your emails.” ‘You can come to the appointment instead of your son and speak to our Nurse Practitioner but then you’ll…
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Off he went in a flash in the big open gym. He darted away not to play with other kids at the birthday party, but instead to play with a curtain on the far right side of the room that separates the small space from the big gym. He happily pulled the curtain open and closed it again. Over and over. He then darted off to throw a basketball in the hoop. He laughed as he picked up the ball and threw it in. Within a few seconds, he was…
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I brought Cooper to the doctor this morning. He’s had chronic ear infections for years and I need to know why. My son is living in pain and he shouldn’t have too. His behaviors sky rocket the worse he feels. Fix the pain, fix the behaviors. Seems pretty easy right? I knew this appointment was going to be bad. I never take Cooper anywhere alone anymore. At nearly 70 pounds I struggle to have control of him. He is fast and sneaky and a runner. One of Cooper’s biggest struggles…
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