June 13, 2023
I Don’t Want These Little Days to Be Over
My son Sawyer is 10 years old.
He is a younger brother and and an older brother. Sandwiched in between 3 siblings.
A few days ago we took some time together.
I got a babysitter for the other three and we went to the river.
We got Takis and Prime and worms. A ten year olds dream.
We fished for an hour. He caught a dozen and a turtle.
We talked about baseball and hockey and a girl with blonde hair.
We walked to dinner. We went for a boat ride. We watched a movie. We played three games of Uno.
We even decided to spend the night.
He needed it.
And I had this moment…when we were walking to and from the restaurant when I realized that he held my hand the whole time. Both ways.
It hit me that my days are numbered. But I also realized that my hands are often full. Too full.
Little toddler hands. Bags. Purses. An older brother who still needs to be held for safety and support.
My hands are often not available to hold his and leisurely stroll.
It felt wonderful. To go slow and just be with him.
I don’t want these little days to be over. Not yet. I’m not ready.
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