19 weeks

Truth time. I’ve been sad this pregnancy, which isn’t an emotion I’m used too. Happy, angry, exhausted, motivated, hungry…yes. Those emotions I know well. (Is hungry an emotion? I say yes because I feel that shit in my soul.)

But sad…almost never. Especially not during any of my prior pregnancies. I am a glass half full kind of girl. A find the joy, focus on the positive person.

So it’s been a tough go this last 19 weeks. I feel like a stranger in my own body most days. Like a robot going through the motions of my life.

And I don’t know if it’s the baby, the girl hormones, covid, isolation, my kids not being in school, never being alone, winter, the cold, the darkness, Christmas, or what, but most days I want to curl up in a ball and say screw it to almost everything. But I can’t.

With three boys that just doesn’t work. Today I vowed to do better and feel better. So I got my butt out for a walk. It’s only ten degrees out and until my lower half went numb it was brutal. And then my cell phone died from the cold and it started to snow.

But I did it and after I felt so much better. More awake then I have in months.

Pregnancy during covid is no joke. Either is pregnancy with three kids at home and a husband who snores.

One day at a time I guess. How many sleeps until May?! Not that I’m counting or anything.

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