Our Secret World

Happy Sunday from this kid.

We’ve had an interesting day. He asked me for a train guide from 2007. I told him I’d do my best but reminded him that he was most likely setting me up for failure. He asks me for the most obscure things.

He had faith in me though.

I know because he asked me well over 100 times.

He also asked me to go shopping. And for amazon. And paper. And Target.

When the Amazon van drove by I knew we were in trouble.

I know what anxiety in my son looks like. It is a sneaky beast that comes out of nowhere and takes control of him. And when she gets too loud in his head, he picks his nails. And hides them from me.

Well, I found the guidebook from 2007 for $5.95 on amazon. Winning.

We are also practicing deep breaths and first-then, lists and waiting one more sleep to go to Target. And calm hands. And having a safe body.

It’s been a day. I’ve spent most of it protecting his hands and feet. This is our secret world.

We also sat outside for quite sometime and drew with chalk and went to Starbucks for a treat. We waved at neighbors and read old train magazines too.

We danced a bit. And had a tickle party.

See, his anxiety is strong but he is stronger. He finds the joy. And if he can’t, well, I find it for him. Because he deserves it.

Tomorrow is a new day. We will start over.

I promised him a date to Target with mom and I know he will hold me to it.

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