A Letter to My Nonverbal Son

My sweet little Isaac.

You can’t tell me you love me, but you sure show it.

You don’t sing the words to songs, but your loud humming makes me laugh.

I want to tell you I’m sorry though.

I’m sorry you get frustrated because you can’t tell me things.

I’m sorry for the bad days I have when I hate autism.

I’m sorry the world doesn’t understand that you need patience and acceptance.

But I’m so proud of you.

I’m so proud that you can wave to me.

I love that you not only tolerate affection, but that you willingly hug me and squeeze my face!

I am so happy that you are learning sign language and using your new talker.

You have overcome so much already!

You have made me a better person and I look at the world with a different perspective.

My goal in this life is to spread as much autism awareness and make it become autism acceptance.

I’m not changing you for the world, Isaac.

I’m going to change the world for you.

I love you my sweet boy.

Written by, Jessica McCuiston

My name is Jessica McCuiston and my 6 year old Isaac has autism and is still non verbal. We live in Tennessee along with my husband Logan and our younger son Sammy. You can follow our story at Chasing Isaac and on Facebook.

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