The Day I Will Never Forget
It was a beautiful Wednesday June 7, 2017 day. Extremely sunny and warm. Our son Kash was in a great mood. My husband and I were not. We were on edge that day.
We were headed to get Kash’s evaluation to see if he was on the autism spectrum. Adam was trying his best to cheer me up, but in the end I couldn’t cheer up. No parent ever wants to go through wondering if your child could be on the spectrum.
We arrived and got him all checked in. We were the only people in the office at that time. I was sitting in the seat starting to shake. My nerves were on edge. The nurse came out and called for Kash. They took us in a room and asked us family history questions.
The doctor came in the room extremely cheerful. She was so welcoming. She then proceeded to do the evaluation, which lasted close to two hours. She then said, “I am going to step outside, so if you have any questions please let me know.”
Adam and I looked at each other and knew what she was about to say. The doctor came back in the room and sat down. She looked at us and said, “I have enough to diagnosis, Kash with Autism.”
My heart just broke into a million pieces. We already kind of knew Kash would be on the spectrum, but getting the final diagnosis from the doctor was tough. I knew right at that very minute our whole lives would change.
Leaving the doctor’s office, I felt like everyone was staring at us. Like everyone already knew the outcome. I don’t know if I had the look of disbelief on my face, or if I had been crying.
The car ride home was very quiet. I put my sunglasses on and just cried all the way home. I didn’t want Kash to see me upset. Adam had to make all the phone calls to family members, because I just was so emotional that I could barely speak. Our lives will be forever changed on this day.
Written by, Emily Ransom
Hello my name is Emily Ransom. I have a three year old son, Kash, who has autism. I wrote this piece when he was diagnosed. I just want to say you are doing an amazing job with Cooper. I always follow your story on Finding Coopers Voice. I started a facebook page for my son, Kash, called Mama to Kash’s Voice.
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