A Letter To My Son Noah
To my Noah-bug,
“Sometimes I just stop and thank God, for having different plans for me than I had for myself. I have been blessed with a miracle.”
Ten years ago, a sandy blonde hair, slate grey eyed six pound thirteen ounce bundle of all boy was born. Little did I know I was going to be thrown into a ride on a roller coaster I would have never expected.
I thought having a child at 16 was one for the books through those moments and growing up way too fast; but then a special boy was given to me that would prove to me that I had a lot more growing up to do and it would have to happen quickly, because this ride was about to get a whole lot bumpier before it smoothed out.
“Hang on tight and get ready for the wildest, saddest, happiest, most challenging and most rewarding ride of your life!”
This ride through his ten years has been anything but ordinary. There have been ups and there have been downs, there have been so many doctors and therapy appointments, there have been unanswered question, and answered prayers. There have been answered questions (that we didn’t want the answer to), and unanswered prayers.
With each passing year, the reality of raising a special needs child makes you feel emotions that you will never know until you are in the position.
In these ten years, this little blonde hair, hazel eyed boy has changed my entire world around. He has given me the patience of a Saint, the knowledge to pursue a path I never thought I’d ever see myself being in, and the heart to always stand up for him no matter what; to always be his advocate even if no one wants to change their mind.
“Sometimes the things we can’t change end up changing us.”
He has changed our lives in more ways than we can change his, and for that I am thankful. Through all of his struggles, he is the happiest little boy that I have ever met (most days). He doesn’t have the typical childhood with friends, sleepovers, and sports; but he does have a pretty awesome childhood with therapists and people who truly love and accept him that aren’t even his family.
“Parents of children with special needs create their own world of happiness and believe in things that others cannot yet see.”
I will never forget the moments that I found out just how special this little boy being in our lives was; and how it is truly a miracle that he is with us today.
Happy 10th birthday to the most rambunctious, energized, determined, best high fiving, baseball loving little boy that stole my heart all over again in 2007! You will never know how much you mean to me little one. You taught me the best thing is that you have through all of our trials, tribulations, tears, exciting, crazy, beautiful, amazing moments you are exactly who you are supposed to be, and you are amazing at the little boy you are.
Understanding that you are exactly who God put you on this earth to become and you are my teacher to this world; you are turning me into the person that I am supposed to be and I am so very thankful you have changed me for the better!
Love,
Mom
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This article was submitted to Finding Cooper’s Voice by Tonia Brown. Tonia is a 31 year old mother to a 14 year old teenage boy, Kyler and 10 year old Noah-bug. She says, ‘my life is chaotic at times, between a part time job, being a military spouse, and juggling a teenager and special needs kiddo (therapies and such). I love to go to the beach and we love to go to Padres games! I am pretty outgoing, but sometimes love to spend alone time when I can. I work in a mild/mod preschool class and love it.
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